No New Post!

No new post is worthy of being posted. They warned me of this. Writing, especially for the sake of writing is bad choice.

But, I went ahead anyway.

"How much of a flimsy idiot are you?"

I stay transfixed. I have no reply to the following. What stuns me is not the argument they put forth, but the lack of answer/reply on my part. I know there is a reply in me somewhere. A good one. But it doesn't surface. Why am I writing a post? Who cares? Even if they do, how does it matter? In fact, I have been sloppy with my writing many a times, so why wouldn't anybody else be with their reading? That too, when they might not even be readers.

"Now, let us explain", explained these friends. "If someone does open the link to your post (assuming someone actually does!), they will see the length of the post. Length might be a good thing, but definitely not in this case. A glance at the page is motivation enough to move ahead to a different picture, the next video or the next reel. Forget others, us, your close friends do so, many times.

"Remember the article, Me, An Apostate?,or something? We have never read it fully to this day. Remember when you had sent the link? More than two full government terms ago! At the risk of sounding repetitive we ask, WHY - and we mean genuinely, utterly, sincerely, WHY - would you do something as silly as writing a post?"

They have a point. Then, there is the whole reduced attention span, fleeting nature of the generation, decreasing interests with the decreasing times etc. An event or eventuality that might play out in my mind so much, is not even a passing thought in another mind. So why do I write? Because of hope?

"Oh, no! Not the hope thing again, please," they say. "That repetitive argument with fancy terms like persistence, silver lining, perseverance, is sh**. Yes, sh**. Ironically, now matter how hard we press, we cannot come up with a better word to replace 'sh**'. That is sh** man. The whole, 'clinging on to hope' thing is simply to convince lesser mortals like youselves to keep living and keep doing things.

"No new post or even a million posts here are going to make a difference in your life or the others. Even if they say it does, it doesn't. Let us explain how. You remember, A Kindergarten Eye View of World. So many people read it. But it has not changed the scheme of things. You might say, that you were able to sensitise people or make them think... blah, blah.... You would be really dumb to believe people change. Then, if you argue that I write for my own good, it's a personal thing, we might all slap you. Turn by turn."

But I have my own little morality...

"Shut up! That morality argument is a classic refuge of the weak. Nothing works, you are unwanted, you cannot move things, you are uncharismatic and hence you resort to the time-honoured resort of all the failures of the world; morality. Your character is relatively better. Great! So? That, by no means is a talent, an ability or a qualification. Millions, unlike you, get hits on their websites, Youtube videos, Instagram posts, tweets without being morally driven or relevant. Ethics and virtue are the resort of the timid."

So, I have no reason to create a new post, forget expecting it to be read. Even if it is read, it has no consequence for anybody, neither me nor my reader. It will not affect a thought in their life and even if does, nothing will change. The world, as we know it, will continue to exist.

"Okay now, no need to be melodramatic."

But it's true. I have nothing to defend myself or a post. Not as of now. I have no reason to believe it should exist, and even if it does, no reason for it to be read.

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